Friday!!

Hi! Ahhh thank god its friday today! In 15 days I will be in mexico and i'm so excited. I am off this weekend, no overtime.

My session with katrina was good last night......showed her my blog posts on the drama at work.. she thinks it is neat about blogs. Then after my session, I jetted over to Trader's Joe store to get some lettuce wraps to take with me to work since we had a BBQ lunch at work (YUM) and I didn't want buns so i used lettuce wrap for bun and it was yummy! :) Oh yeah Katrina said shes starting to see that I am losing weight again, then jetted over to Target to pay my target card, then went home.. hung out on my deck with the laptop and chatted a bit.

I don't know what my plans for this weekend are yet... probably some cleaning as usual and i need to touch up paint on the bottom of walls. and do some vegging. Sunday probably hang out with mom and do a lil shopping.

Our company is open Monday! :( but at least it is casual day and we can wear shorts if we want to! Off on 4th. 4th of July is my least favorite holiday for many reasons, noises, etc. Firecrackers are very loud that if I am close to it and it goes off, it hurts my ears and it causes me to lose my balance and i fall because when i lose balance, i get dizzy. Also tomorrow will be 20 years ago that my Grandma in Oklahoma died. Not a day goes by without thinking about her. I will scan some pic and post it tomorrow and write a lil story about her .. I miss her alot... technology sucked back then, very limited relay services, so I never got chance to talk to grandma on phone, it was always by letters. I was to go see her and some friends after I graduated from high school, but then i got a job and i said i would hold off until christmas. She said ok .. i feel guilty about that.. I also wanted her to come up and see me graduate but she said no ... didn't want to leave her home.. .she lived in a bad area.. and i was terribly disapointed. I remember waking up on July 1st.. with a very weird feeling.. something wasn't right.. but i couldn't pinpoint it, until around noon at work, when I had a friend (she knew sign language and again no relay back then) call my mom at work for me, it was just a very random call... and they told me that mom had left for home some family emergency and wouldn't tell me.. so I raced home..(gut feeling was telling me it may have had something to do with grandma) . mom wasn't home, but i ran in the house.. and saw the suitcase in the living room, i knew something wasn't right.. ran over to neighbor's .. asked her if she knew anything.. she said no.. and i explained that theres a family emergency and that there was a suit case out open in the living room .. she got worried.. then i figured she might be at the bank by our house.. and i raced .. and she was heading back home.. and we stopped.. i asked was something wrong.. she said yes.. i said grandma??/ she said yes and started to cry saying "she died" i said oh.. then it hit me and i started to cry. It was a very emotional day.. then i took her to the airport.. I went two days later but i missed the funeral. and we went over to her place.. it was very hard.. she had at least 25 years worth of stuff... and i could feel her presence there.. but she wasn't there.. u know? then later we went to see where she was buried. The marker wasn't ready then ... (im crying as I type this) She was only 66 years old. She had heart issues. I went to Oklahoma in 1992 and friends took me to see her grave, and I could feel her presence there, like she knew I was there...........

Grandma Mildred Pillatos, I love you very much and I miss you. Until we meet again in heaven, I will never stop thinking about you.