Got my laptop but...and stuff

It is incomplete! Grrrr...

First, I went to my great neice's birthday party (she'll be 2 Monday! Where does the time go? Seems yesterday my neice was that age and she's 21 now). It was fun watching her open presents.. when it was clothes, she'd toss them aside, and was more into toys! She certainly liked the Nemo books I got her!! LOL

I will post pictures later! :)

Now onto my laptop..it is here! I opened the box, my dad said to wait till I get home (eyeroll there) and I told him I just wanted to check to see if everything was there! Then I noticed the wireless router was missing! So my mom called Dell, (bec I ordered it under dad's account and yes I gave him $500 cash) .... but for some reason couldn't get through on the phone, so we logged onto dad's account, did some investigating and discovered that the router was being shipped separately via DHL (the laptop was delivered by UPS) and didn't even tell us! Nice, huh? The ETA is 6/27. So I had to let Jason know and we arranged to get together on Weds. So the laptop is here at home! :)

I am not working overtime this weekend, which is fine with me. It's not like I need the money, but it is just nice to have extra money and put it in savings account. I have learned that it is not good to rely on overtime for bills, debt, etc. I learned the hard way! Being out of debt is so great. It took me years to get out. I am starting to sense some "normalcy" in my life now .... I got my life back the way I want my life to be without drugs, toxic friends, toxic men and whatnot. I am still single, which is not a bad thing. I would rather be single than being hurt. I can't believe my friend, she wants a husband so he can do the yardwork for her. That is an awful reason to want a husband. Ugh. She would gripe how she wants Mr. Right, etc and doesn't think her current bf is the one, I told her why is she wasting her time with him if she wants to get married to the right guy, etc. Whatever. I admit, that I did want a husband but for the wrong reasons, so I could have my own home, etc etc., but that was ages ago! but now I discovered that you don't have to have a man to get things..... I own a home now, and I didn't need a husband! :)

Speaking of owning a home... my condo is coming along nicely. I am almost done painting the living room...and now I am looking to buy a bistro table for the deck, so I can hang out there during hot weather.

Weight loss progress: I haven't checked the scale lately, but I am doing pretty good most of the time. I did eat some carbs today .. white hamburger bun, yikes... but it was at a party. Need to do some food prep for the week, and do some grocery shopping. I seriously need to cut down on drinking diet dr pepper. I am so damn addicted to it.

Office candy bowl in the WP area hasn't been filled lately which I am so glad. I am trying not to react to it when it gets filled, because I don't want to satisfy Evenstar, ya know? I think she likes to piss me off, I don't know.

Katrina, my therapist is right.. I have grown so much lately, and came a long way! Yes I am seeing a therapist. It doesn't necessarily mean you are crazy! :) It is good to have one to talk over issues, and get feedbacks, put things in perspective, and all sorts. I have been seeing her since 1991, with some time in between that I havent seen her for months at a time. She always said she would worry about me when i was on a haitus. (I was using back then). Now the medical insurance has gotten strict with guidelines for covering mental health, most of the time, they won't cover mine because at times, I won't have "serious" depression, etc. and I would have to pay for it myself out of pocket. But I feel it is worth it at times, and I often joke with Katrina that she is my paid girl friend! LOL Anyway to the point, yep, I have grown alot and smarter, etc.

I will be turning 40 in less than 6 months. So it is exciting in some ways, because I will be in a new decade drug-free, drama free, etc. I need to think of some goals, what I want to do. I don't know if I will have kids, at the rate I am going, it doesn't look good, but then one never know! :) Main goal is my weight issue. I want to experience life as a thin person!! and I want to move to Florida.

Speaking of kids, if I hadn't lost the baby, he/she would have been 1 year around right now. I am much better at coping with the loss of the baby now. I can talk about it, but what really pisses me off is if I try to talk about it, friends would tell me dont think about it, etc. Grrrrrr! and they have never experienced miscarriage themselves. It was very hard at first.

Well, that's all for now and I will post later!

Good night, friends! :)