Slowly but surely healing...

It has been a while since my last post. I am slowly recovering from the heartbreak! :( I know I am over him, however, I am still mad at the situation and the way he broke up with me. It is just very painful in healing from heartbreak without resorting to crack. In the past I used drugs to cope with heartbreak, never had the chance to really grieve. I just realized that I have never had the chance to grieve from breakups with Jason and Michael. Until 2001 when i became sober and moved to Federal Way to start a new life. I met Dustin in 2004, and he ended relationship bec of his job, so that was pretty painful ... and I had very strong urges to use crack, but that never happened! Now Eddie dumped me over email, and that was worst... and I didn't really have much temptations to use crack. But it is still painful.

I can't wait to go to Florida and Hawaii. Hopefully being with great friend down in Florida will help me bounce back 100%! :)

Yep, been sober for 5.5 years now. No, I never mixed crack with sex, thankfully. I was always alone when I used crack or with Michael. He would want sex while high on crack, but I have always refused. Never had any interest in sex, just more interested in being high! LOL

I went to see my RA today. Depressing :( ... some vertabes (I think) has already fused and my neck is still good but some hunchness there! That is so depressing! What man wants a woman with hunched back? W AAAA I don't have full blown hunch back.. and RA is referring me to physical therpaist to help prevent or at least PROLONG it from happening. I had tb test done today so will go back on Friday to check it. I also need to go to CORE dept at doctors office monday to learn how to give injections to start my treatments! YIKES! I hate hate hate needles but i guess u gotta do what you have to do to feel better!!! I was concerned about getting time off and told this to doc. he was shocked! so he wrote a note to my supervisor telling her that I needed to go back to doc on Fri and Monday!! HAHAHAHAHA and gave that note to boss and she couldn't say no! tee hee! However she did say she was off friday! I hate that.. and it is not like I was taking the whole day off! Sheesh!