32 days of 2006 left

In 4 days I'm heading down to Hawaii... supposed to be 83 all week! WAHOO!!! :)

In 15 days I will be 40!

In 14 days I will see my therapist again on my final day of being 39 years old! I had my therapy session tonight. It was a good session as always. Still struggling with "LETTING GO" of my anger towards him! Still trying to pinpoint why I am still somewhat mad for almost 3 months now (he dumped me on Sept 1--almost 3 months ago) over a TWO week relationship but that was also very intense one.

Anyway, 2007 is just around the corner. I don't believe in makin resolutions ... basically, what's the point of doing that because alot of people never keep them and why wait till January to start all over? Why not do it now? Instead of resolutions, let's call this my goals.

My goals are:
Attempt to lose weight (AGAIN!!!)... I miss my clothes .. i have lots of them here and they don't fit anymore! :( ..... I miss shopping for smaller and cute clothes. I still have them.

• Why is it everytime when I am on a ROLL ... doing good, losing weight, etc... being happy, swore off men... a man comes along... then I fall for him and we date for a while, until he decides he doesn't like me anymore and dumps me. It feels like I get punched in the face and i get depressed for a while. (Dustin wasn't like that though .. he just accepted his promotion and moved to Oregon so that situation was different, but yeah, I was on a ROLL when he came along and i was at my lowest weight of 170 lbs but after we broke up, I was so sad.. but not to the extereme like with Eddie..).
• Look into getting hardwood or prego floor just for my living room/dining room and hallway...learn to install them myself or have a friend help... I am starting to hate the carpet.. vaccumming.. all the cat's hair, etc.
• Don't know what my vacation plans are for 2007 yet but I do want to return to Florida again! :)
• start going to curves on a regular basis
• work on my physical therapy exercises.. don't wanna damage my back/neck any further.

I was at Petsmart tonight, to buy my therapist's dogs some rawhide and treats... I love her dogs.. they make great therapy dogs! :) One night she did not have the dogs with her and the session wasn't the same!!! LOL .. I was looking at the cats up for adoption. I love cats... it makes me sad for them and I wanna take them all home with me but I can't afford and can't handle that many cats! LOL . they did have a sign looking for volunteers.. to clean cage, change litter boxes, etc and I am thinking about doing this.