Catching up

It has been a long while since I last posted. Since I read quite a bit of people's blogs, I feel that I owe it to them by posting mine! Heh.

Let's see....... nothing exciting has been happening ... oh yeah I did go to Florida June 6th to 13th. Took the red eye into Atlanta on 5th, the flight was pretty good but quite a bit of turbulence, which the plane shook hard at times. Landed into Fort Myers, met up with a sweet friend and her cute daughter. It did rain quite a bit the 1st day and I was hesitant to go out in the rain due to being a Seattle girl and hating the rain n cold. So I had no choice but walk in the rain, and hey it wasn't so bad. It was HOT, steamy and rainy. I like that kind of rain because it is still HOT, like taking a hot shower. When it rains in Seattle, it is COLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We trekked over to Miami to do Monkey Jungle, but we were somewhat disappointed.. not as great as the website claims, AJ says its a tourist trap! grrrrrr..... but it was cool to see those monkeys dropping down the bowls for us to feed them.

Did not do anything much exciting, which was okay mainly just went to FL to relax and soak up some sun! Hung out at the pool a few times. I was very amazed at how well Mali swims on her own with the help of floaters... swimming in 6 feet of water! Visited the beach a couple times, I love love being in the ocean, and I was just taking a stroll in the ocean, it just felt so great. I did not feel very much pain while down there. Being back home now, I feel quite more pain now. Grrrr...

I miss Mali. She's a real smart girl, funny too. She's the cutest girl in the world in addition to my great-niece Zoe. We were hanging in the spare room drawing on her easel board. Mali asked me by pointing to the bulk food of chips, etc.. as to ask if she could have some, so I signed to her "Ask your mom" .. I had to laugh at her response. Her brown eyes widened and shook her head NO NO!! HAHAH I ran out into the living room and told AJ and she laughed, saying that's bec Mali knew I would say no! That was soooo hilarious!!!

While on the topic of kids.. I had been feeling a little down but I am ok now. I was just thinking of how my child would have been 2 years around this time (was due June 25 but for some reason, the baby decided to leave me on October 30, 2004). I was 6 weeks pregnant. However, most of times, I am with what happened because I am not meant to be a single mom, in fact, I don't really want to be a single mom. Kudos to the single mothers out there because from what I see, it is not the easiest job in the world. How come I never had kids, you ask? Well, I have had a couple serious relationships. I wanted to have a child with my ex Michael when we were together for 9 years, but he didn't want any kids. So that did hurt a bit. :(

I wonder.. how my life would be now if I didn't do those stupid mistakes back in my 20s... but I can't change it, what happened happened! . At least my life is now the way I have been wanted it to be for years. It was not an easy path to get to where I am but I made it.

Now I am 40.5 years old. What do I want to do with my life? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. now that I am finally diagnosed with Ankylosing Spondylitis almost a year ago this month after 10 years of being in anguish and pain.

I know I.can.not.stand.Seattle.any.longer. I want to move to Florida but I am not sure what town ... Tampa? (or the city where deaf school is, I can't remember the name)... I just don't know... it is a BIG change... I don't know how to go about obtaining a job first, I don't know too many people in FL except I know 3 people... 1 in Naples, 1 in Miami and 1 in Tampa. I am not sure about doing phone interview (would have to do it via relay or VRS... and I.do.not.believe.in.interpreters during job interviews. I would have to fly down for an interview which I am sure will be very expensive for the last minute flights.. hmmmmmm.... any tips would be appreciated. :) I am going to refinance my condo, and get some cash and put in savings. Maybe use it to fly down for interviews if I find something I want and they are interested in me. Who knows, we shall see... or maybe I will just sell my condo, and just up and leave and take a big risk. I don't know...

that's enough ramblings for the night and I will blog some more very soon! Promise! :)

Goodnight!
Cheryl

P.S. I was reading some of my old posts ... and I deleted a couple posts off about the loser I was dating for couple weeks.. ahhh that felt great to get rid of it as I did not want to read it anymore...cleansing myself! :) I have been single for 10 months now but I am ok with it. More later..